Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Words no one wants to hear
A friend of mine posted this to Facebook the other night. She is one of the most supportive people I know and she knows her stuff, she is very confident in herself and her abilities. We've been friends for many years now and I count her among one of my very closest friends.
I may not have been specifically the person/people she had in mind with this, but I know this is me. I know I have no confidence and as much as I say I can do things, deep down I don't really think I can. And sadly, I think there are quite a few people who are starting to think this about me.
I don't want that. I want to be as supportive to myself as I feel I am to others. I want to feel I deserve the support people have given me.
So, I state here and now that I don't want to be the person the author (whoever they are) are talking about. I want to be the person who runs (or walks, that's ok too right?) on the treadmill. I want to be the person who asks my friends for support. I want to be the person who says, "Fuck this, I can do it." I want to do it for me and I want to do it to prove that I really deserve the love and support of my friends.
I declare today that I will do this. I will stop with the excuses. I will stop with the easy way. I will do what I know should be doing.
Thanks friend! I may not have been the exact person you were referring to when you posted this, but I needed to see/read it.