Failed trainer session

We went back to the trainer Monday night. Our last set of sessions ran out a couple weeks before Shamrock weekend and we decided to wait until after race weekend to sign up for another set of sessions. I was a bit surprised that we even got to go when I woke up to this:

But, somehow it snowed all day, but it was so warm that it melted what stuck overnight and all new snow that fell during the day. I have no idea how that's possible, but it is.

So, first night back. I've been doing these sessions for over a year now and I'm pretty confident in my ability. Sure, we may up the weight which is a challenge, but I'm able to do the routine. We did some stuff that was a stretch, but I managed it all. A lot of our recent work has focused on balance. I have none. Sad.

But what upset me and is still upsetting me is the above set of planks. In the above photos each step is separate, unlike what I did tonight where you did all three in the same exercise. I had a 10 pound weight and struggled with the front lift. I could barely lift it with my left arm. I could easily do the row. It was the only thing I could do in this exercise. The twist holding the 10 pound weight? Yea, I got a few on the right side, none on the left.

I felt like a complete failure. A little over a week ago I ran a half marathon - 13.1 miles - how can I not be able to do this? How could I not raise a 10 pound weight? I am angry. I am frustrated. I am upset. I cried on the way home from the gym. Hubby kept telling me he struggled with this one too, but you know what? He did it. He completed it without have to modify it or cutting out the twist.

So, right now I'm feeling a bit down on myself. I was so psyched for half marathon training and right now I'm feeling like it's just going to be an uphill battle...one I'm not sure I can win.

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I am trying to get back into the exercise mindset.  So, last week I set up another 10 sessions with the trainer I had been working with since January.  Monday night was my first session.  And as a smart person, who hasn't been working out much over the last 5 weeks, I ran 8 miles in the morning.  Then Monday night, I hit the gym with the trainer - squats, lunges, dead lifts, push-up rows, etc. 

And now....paying.  My legs have been sore ever since.  Tuesday, they weren't happy.  Wednesday, OMG.  Pain.  They did not like me at all.  So, as the smart person I am I went to the gym and worked out for an hour.  I barely could walk when I got home.  It was insane.  Today, legs are feeling a bit better.  Not perfect, but oh so much better than yesterday.

Time to get used to this.  For whatever reason, trainer has figured out a way to make my legs sore every time I work out with him, irregardless of how often we do the routine.  Here's hoping legs feel better for Friday (fencing) and Saturday (4 mile run).

The Next Couple Months

I've made some goals for the next 10 weeks.  Why 10 weeks?  Well, I have 10 sessions with my personal trainer that go through the end of June.  My fencing class also goes through the end of June.  So, it seems like the end of June seems to be a great time frame to aim for and see what I can do.

The main goal?  Weight.  My goal is to lose 13 pounds.  That's it.  13 pounds.  I believe it's doable by the last day of June.  How I am going to do it?

Personal trainer sessions once a week

Running

Cardio Kickboxing classes

Fencing

Biking

Racquetball

Weight Watchers

Keep me accountable people.  Those last pounds have been hard to get off.  I've been struggling for two months to stay on plan and lose and failing.  I'm sooooo close to finally hitting that goal.  It's within reach.  There will be multiple updates.  I have waited a long time for this - 36 years to be exact.  I can do it.