Early Days

Two days into Lent, some good things and some bad things. I've done well so far with my resolutions to date. Granted, it's all of two days, but it's good.

Fasting seemed to change the way I feel after I eat. I have felt fuller after eating, even to the point where I stop eating before I normally would. It's interesting.

I'm realizing I have nothing in the house for "dessert." Last year I got fun yogurts and froze them. That was great. So, need to go out and grab some "desserts."

Today, I was really really sick. I didn't eat my whole lunch because I was feeling very full. Then I just felt horrible. I left work early and slept. It was heavenly. It was just what I needed.

Tomorrow is splurge day. Yea! I have class in the morning, so no weigh-in, but I've done a much better job this week in staying on track than I did last time I would miss weigh-in. I might have lost a pound this week. :-) Back on track!

Ash Wednesday

Ah, it is the begining of Lent again. The time for Lenten resolutions that I am so more apt to follow than New Year's resolutions. Maybe it's the whole going to hell if you break them. LOL! You'd think I was a good practicing Catholic from that comment, wouldn't you? ;-)

So, for the second year in a row, I am fasting. It was HARD last year. Really, really hard. I had never done it before and decided to try something new. Get out of my comfort zone. So, since I did it last year, I basically felt like I couldn't take a step BACK, you know? So, this year I fasted and got hubby to as well. heehee. It's been a rough day, as I am very hungry at the moment. I am waiting on a cup of chai tea with milk right now. It's thicker than regular tea and warm. Ahhhh, warmth.

So, other Lenten resolutions:

1. No meat. I am a pescetarian for Lent (meaning, no meat except fish).
2. No sweets. No cookies, cakes, pies, cookies, brownies, pudding, jello, etc. This does not include fruit or my sweet 'n low for my coffee/tea.
3. I will follow up WW plan to the letter. Exact number of points Sunday through Friday, with a splurge day on Saturday (which I still cannot have meat or sweets).

I had thought about doing other resolutions as well, but I couldn't decide on any. So, tomorow starts day 1 of Lenten promises. Wish me luck!

Amazing

Who would have thought after all the upheaval and stress of the last three weeks that I'd walk into weigh-in and be down .4 pounds? I was SHOCKED! Seriously. I try to keep track of how I'm doing through the week on my home scale and that was up by 1.5 pounds from the last weigh-in. I was prepared. But, the WW scale said down .4 pounds. I'm ok with that. :-) Who am I to argue?

Now onto the sad part. I was all set to run yesterday afterwards. I even set a goal of adding 1/4 mile onto my run. I would rest a minute after the normal 1.25 miles, then head off for the additional 1/4 mile, giving me a 1.5 mile run. But, Friday I got into a fight. Yes, me. Quiet, conflict-resistant me. I went for a walk at lunch Friday and was moving right along my normal route. I have a 30 minute route laid out that I do a couple times a week to help get exercise in. I was almost 2/3 of the way through, when out of no where, the sidewalk started with me. I was taken by complete surprise. I mean really, I've walked this route multiple times since the beginning of 2009 with no indication that I was causing problems. But, as I was walking, I was tripped by the sidewalk and down I went - hard. I landed on my right side, scraping my right palm and gaining two large lacerations on my right knee/leg. And to top it all off, the sidewalk ripped my favorite pair of pants. Oh, I was mad! Really, I was ambushed because I didn't see it coming. And now it's on. I have a long memory and I will have my revenge.

So, this conflict didn't allow me to exercise Friday night (Wii Fit and bike) and then unable to run on Saturday. I was kinda ticked. I was looking forward to it. Now I can't run until the first Sat. in March as I have my final Sat. class next week. But, I am feeling better, so I am going to work in Wii Fit today. And I will be re-visiting the scene of the crime this week. I'm not going to allow the sidewalk to think it's won. Screw that! I won't let a little fight stop me from walking. No way!

Day III on the Wagon

I'm being creative tonight. So, today, you get ink color!

What a day. I had a job interview this morning that lasted an hour and forty minutes. And that was round one. Ugh. I was told if they wanted to continue with me, I would hear from them late next week or early the following. We shall see.

I grabbed breakfast and lunch on my way back from the interview. Had a delicious coffee - french vanilla coffee with chocolate eclair cream. Yum! I also got a Caesar salad and grapes for lunch. Both were awesome! Why is it that I can buy lunch and be full all afternoon, but packing my own lunch makes me want to eat all afternoon? I ate less at lunch than normal, but I still felt fuller. Stupid.

Came home and did a ton of exercise. Well, just an hour, but I was happy. Jumped on the Wii Fit for 30 minutes. I did 20 minutes of advanced step and 10 minutes of the soccer head butt fame. Set two personal records on the soccer balance game. :-) I was happy. That stupid soccer game is TOUGH! Then I grabbed my little bike and did 30 minutes there too. It upsets my little kitty Elizabeth because she always wants to sit on my lap while I'm biking. LOL! She ended up sitting on the sofa behind me. Then I did my arm routine again. I think I may skip it tomorrow. My arms are feeling a tad sore tonight. Two nights in a row may not have been the best idea! Oh and the Wii Fit said I'm only up .4 pounds from the last time I was on it. If that's true, I may not have gained too much. :) That makes me happy. Weigh-in Sat. Ugh.

Getting Back on the Wagon Isn't Easy

Ugh. Day 2 of being back on the wagon. It's not been easy. Yesterday I did a 30 minute walk at lunch, which I haven't done in weeks. I ate on plan, even having a full veggie dinner after class. I had 5 points left. I made steamed veggies (2), carrots (1), and free Ranch dressing (2). I was proud of myself.

Today, I could not get up the energy to walk at lunch. I just wasn't feeling it. So, instead, I used my bike. I have a small bike that is just the feet part. I did that for an hour. I again did well on points, even under I think. Which won't kill me since I've been eating crappy for two weeks. Oh, did I mention I did arm exercises tonight too. I was proud of myself. I gotta get my arms in shape to wear that dress. It's gorgeous and I want to do it justice.

Not sure if I'll walk tomorrow, but since I can come home right after work, I do know it's a Wii night. I haven't done THAT in ages. The Wii is going to be mad at me. LOL! It will be a good chance to see how horrible I have done weight-wise. I'm kinda sad. Seven squared isn't going to happen. I want to get back to where I was before February started, so that I am starting March with a clean slate.

Second Poor Week in a Row

Ugh. Had another poor week. It was bad in more than just food though. The underlying stress of course is the job situation. Waiting to hear what the job description of the Director position will be before I make the final decision on the job. Husband was sick this week and we're still waiting to figure out what's going on. The good thing is he is now on stronger antibiotics and is doing better. Thank God. But while we were trying to figure out what was going on, it was upsetting. I also had a job interview this week, but it was canceled after I waited in the lobby for 10 minutes. There was a personal emergency for the interviewer right as I got there, so we have to reschedule. I was also stressed on my projects for my Advanced Research Methods class. This is the first assignments due and I am scared to death I'm going to loose my good GPA. I'll see this Thursday how I did.
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With that being said, I ate horribly and had no exercise. I came home and didn't move off the sofa. I would love to say it was because of the homework I had this week, but in reality it was due to depression and not caring. I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I actually am lucky my homework got done honestly. But this was a bad week. I am going to get on the scale in the morning to see how badly I've affected my Jan. loss. Which scares me honestly. The goal this week is to try to reverse the gain of the last two weeks. I go back to WW this Sat. and I HOPE that I can stay the same, though a gain of 1 pound wouldn't kill me. If I can get back to where I was at the end of Jan by the end of the month, I can live with that.

And with that, I ordered a dress for the wedding I have in Vegas this July. I bought it in a 12, which means I have to loose 25 pounds to get into it. I might have to adjust my seven squared goal for July, but I believe I can be down 25 pounds by the end of July. So, I ordered the dress. Want to see it? Ok, twist my arm!

Poor week

It's been a really bad week. Food especially, but in other ways too. Sucks. The problem is that when bad things happen, I tend to eat. I tend to not really care what I eat, just that I eat things that make me happy. Mostly sweet, but lately I've been equal-opportunity - sweet, salty, crunchy, soft - doesn't matter. Just food that's not good for me. Food that's quick. And lots of it.

Which of course depresses me. And that of course feeds the cycle. I just want to eat more, because really, I've blown all my hard work at this point, why NOT eat more? It's so frustrating. And I know I am this way. Which you would think would make me more aware of these tendencies and be able to avoid them. Nope. I fall hook, line, and sinker every time.

And I don't know how to turn it around. I need to. I am totally out of control. Which could be part of this. Everything is out of control in my life right now. I'm waiting on so many other things, that the only thing I control is food. And since things aren't going so good in the other aspects of my life, I can eat things I enjoy. Which means, crappy, high-calorie foods. I have the opposite of an eating disorder. I don't control my food by NOT eating, I control it by eating what I like. Ugh.

I wish I could say I'm changing my ways tomorrow, but I can't guarantee that. I swear each morning that I'm going to eat healthy and start fresh. Put the past in the past and soldier on. And at some point, I eat something I shouldn't or more than I should and the gloves are off. I don't know what to do at this point.

All I know is that I need to gain some control over my life...and soon.

60 Minutes of Exercise!

So, for the first time in a week, I walked at lunch. It was great. I have been indoors because it snowed last Wednesday and since I live in the Northeast, people don't know how to clean off the side walks. So, no walking outside for me. I did some Wii and the treadmill once, but no outside walking.

Until today. I walked for 30 minutes at lunch today. Yea! I like going at lunch because I feel like even if something crazy happens when I get home, I've gotten 30 minutes in. So, I went walking. I wish it was still so wet and that the one path didn't break into a gravel path for a little while, but it is good to get out. And it was WARM today! When I came back to the office, the temp was 32 degrees. LOL! When you've walked in 6 degree weather, 32 is rather warm.

I also came home and did the Wii. I like coming home and using it. I'm addicted to the Advance Step. I don't know why. I want a perfect score, but it is alluding me so far. Stupid advance step. But I got 31 minutes in, so a total of 61 minutes for the day.

And I'm excited to say that I stayed the same weight-wise since the last time I used the Wii. That made me feel good. It's that time and I HATE that my weight wanders all over the place. So, I need to drop 3 pounds by next Wednesday to be on track. I'm back on track with the exercise and food, so I think it's doable. Woohoo!

A Laid Back Sunday

It was a good week in terms of exercise and healthy eating overall. The weather kept me from walking outside this week. It snowed on Wednesday and there was no way to walk on the paths at work. The ones AT work were fine, but the side streets nearby had not been cleared, so I thought it wasn't worth it. I did do some Wii and I did use the treadmill once this week, to make up for not walking at work. But for some reason, walking at work is so much easier than walking on the treadmill. I guess by the time I get home, I'm too tired to use the Wii and the treadmill.

Saturday was weigh-in day. Lost 1.8 pounds this week. I made my 7 pound goal for January! That made me happy. What didn't make me happy was my park. The path at the park has not been cleared yet. It was still covered by snow. Really? Three days after the snow storm it's still covered? Really annoying. Came home and used Exercise TV. LOL! Did a 23 minute show from The Biggest Loser. It was rough and my butt has not been happy with me today. Lunges are the devil.

Next week I can't weigh in on Sat. I have class and I have thought about this for about a week and can't come up with any way to work in a weigh-in on Sat. AND get to class. So, I am going to skip weighing in this Sat., but weigh-in Wednesday night. Then skip the following Sat. because again, I have class. Then go back to weighing in on Sat. on the 21st. Then because I have a Sat. class on the 28th, I'm skipping weigh-in that week and going back in March. This is going to be a really tough month. I have to be focused. This will be a rough month.